I'm sure back home, they think I've lost my mind.

ANGEL: Well, I guess I kinda worked it out. If there is no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do. 'cause that's all there is. What we do, now, today. - I fought for so long. For redemption, for a reward, finally just to beat the other guy, but... I never got it.

KATE: And now you do?

ANGEL: Not all of it. All I wanna do is help. I wanna help because I don't think people should suffer, as they do. Because, if there is no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness is the greatest thing in the world.

I try and remember this every time I'm about to go into a tirade about the injustices of the universe, or every time I feel like walking out of work and never coming back. Nothing you do matters, so if you do nothing, you don't matter. All you can do is try and make a difference to the lives of other people. There is no heaven, there is no hell, there is only this, and if you fuck it up, there will be no repercussions, there will only be you, knowing you could've done more.

• 21:39 When I am king you will be first against the wall, with your opinion which is of no consequence at all. #
• 23:01 Accidentally wrote 1000+ words for NaNoWriMo. Wish I wasn't so tired, I feel like otherwise I could keep going. #

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• 20:16 I made cookies. #
• 21:05 I hate writing mediocre report comments for average kids in the top class. I can't help but think that it'll lead to cranky phonecalls. #
• 22:22 I feel weird tonight. Like I'm fundamentally deficient. Finally finished my reports, and my insides are moving all around. #
• 22:50 It's a rare occasion that I actually employ my dinosaur nightlight, but there's something about the rotation of colours that's very relaxing #
• 22:52 @sqrnookle You can write my reports. I told you. #

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• 07:42 Apparently ripped out my pump cannula sometime last night. 6 hours without insulin would account for the icky feeling. #
• 21:24 I'm further than ever before with nanowrimo. #

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• 09:11 I need to go buy a patch with a dinosaur on it so that I can awesome my hooded t-shirt. #
• 19:31 The light from the sunset has tinged everything in my room with a faint orange glow. It's messing with my mind. #

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• 06:25 I can see a kookaburra out my window. That's gotta be a positive omen for the day ahead. #
• 06:50 Tired! #
• 19:01 Josh Joplin is releasing new stuff for the first time in forever. It's lovely. www.amongtheoakandash.com #
• 20:38 I had a slight emotional breakdown today when I realised that I'm incompetent and that I have absolutely no balls (metaphorical or actual). #
• 21:01 Dear NaNoWriMo - I have no idea where this story wants to go. Sorry. #
• 21:25 I need to get down another 1000 words to keep on target for NaNoWriMo. I honestly have the mind of a goldfish right now. #

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• 06:20 Michael Crichton died. #
• 22:01 Tripod 'For the Love of God' review on my blog: imaginarydinosaur.com #
• 22:20 An hour and a half ago my BSL was 28mmol, I corrected, and now I'm 3.8mmol. I still feel pukey like I'm high - but I need to eat. Suck. #
• 22:26 Forced eating sucks. My brain says 'yes', but everything else say 'no'. Especially my stomach. #

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• 00:04 Tripod were freaking awesome. Live musical comedy for the win. Amazingly talented, and generally nice guys. #
• 16:51 Work is kicking my arse right now. Seriously. *eye twitch* #
• 21:36 I love how my Macbook readjusts its brightness when I turn of the light. #
• 22:00 I need to get out 450 more words before I go to bed if I want to keep up with my word count. Damn you nano. #
• 22:12 Ok - so I've been watching Obama's victory speech and I'm actually getting really emotional. #

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• 06:38 I wish that people would reply to emails faster. I'm waiting on something that I sent off last Wednesday, and it's driving me crazy. #
• 17:28 @godinpants Poor Joe. Is he not badass enough for you? #

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• 19:29 NaNoWriMo is kicking my arse right now. #
• 22:50 5368/50000. Just over 10%. Now it's time for bed. #

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• 12:23 @wilw Tree Pretty. #
• 12:49 I *hate* writing reports for kids. "Your kid is dumb and you did a bad job raising them." is apparently not an acceptable response. #
• 13:27 @backwardscrafts www.questfortherest.com/ Try that. #
• 14:15 NaNoWriMo =3912 words and counting. The 'don't edit' factor is killing me on the inside - but I am writing lots - and quickly. Awesome. #
• 16:25 Jut started watching 'The Office'. I'm pretty much in love with Jim. #
• 19:38 I wish more people would update their word count. It kicks you into gear a bit to know people are in front of you. #
• 20:29 @backwardscrafts www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/146241 and I agree - the no author search thing is making it hard. #
• 20:31 I was just talking to a friend on the phone, and delighted way too much in hearing myself send her a message via. msn. #
• 22:20 Can I just express my incredible disappointment that the words 'First do no harm" aren't actually in the hippocratic oath? #

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• 23:38 25 minutes until NaNoWriMo. I'm staying up, writing a token paragraph - then going to bed. *Tired* #
• 00:20 322 words. It's 12.20am. Now to bed. #
• 07:30 Our internet is down, which could be a good thing considering nanowrimo has begun. Six hundred words so far. 49400 to go. #
• 09:45 2000 words. Not a bad effort. Now i can go get those new pajamas i wanted. #
• 10:20 The trouble with wearing a 'half man, half horse shirt' is that if you're unattractive, people will always assume it's the top half. #

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"Now the nightmare's real
Now Dr Horrible is here
To make you quake with fear."

I think he's cute.

Made out of felt, hand-stitched on my sick day.

( More pics under the cut )Also available here and here at my deviantart account.

• 19:14 I just coughed up a spectacular green blob of phlegm. Impressive, no? #
• 19:44 XKCD Love. xkcd.com/459/ #
• 19:55 tinyurl.com/5bafsl Obsession alert. #
• 21:30 It's official - Futurama movie II not as funny as movie I. That said - it did have its moments. Bender and his first born was awesome x10. #
• 06:34 Still sick, but looking forward to swimclub this afternoon. I'm also getting my car serviced, so look forward to a colder, broker me. #
• 17:51 2.5km today, a better effort, especially considering the extent of my cold. I'm off to netball in half an hour. It's cold. #

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• 20:48 Managed a second last at trivia - we're nothing if not consistent. My body still hates me but watching old HIMYM seems to be good for it. #
• 06:31 Watched an excellent documentary on the SBS last night, 'Baraka Boys'. It's left me feeling really inspired, despite the bleak ending. #
• 17:21 Bought the new Futurama movie which I will watch shortly. One of my kids wrote a sonnet today. I was so pleased with him. #
• 17:48 Listening to the Assassins bcr has me wikipedia-ing my way through assassinations of the past. Morbidly fascinating. #

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• 19:15 My throat hurts. </whiney Barney channeling> *pouts* #
• 23:23 Can't sleep. Should really call in sick to work tomorrow but I doubt I'll have a restful day at home anyway. Stupid immune system. #
• 16:37 I ran out of voice yelling at year 8 today and in an attempt to get their attention, slammed my diary on the desk. The desk broke in half. #

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• 19:34 My stomach seems to disapprove of something I've eaten today. Considering all I've eaten is pizza and tomato soup - I blame the pizza. #
• 23:00 The Sydney Comedy store has closed down forever. I'm really fucking mad.Partly because I love it there, they also have $300 of mine. Fuck. #
• 16:56 I've got another cold, that's four or five this year. My throat is killer, but Codral is keeping the rest at bay. Year 9 killed me today. #

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( Why I Love Dr Horrible - Spoilers Galore (it's also very, very long) )

Uni is over for 2006, this time next year I'll be done for good.

Scary. Though today was sadly anti-climactic.

I'm trying to think ahead and sort out all the things that I want to get done this summer, because I always end up back at uni wondering why I didn't do A, B and C.

I'm working 5 nights a week until the end of the year, so I'll be earning decent cash, it's just a matter of keeping busy during the day...the Wii will be released soon though (16 days) so that should keep me busy *Twighlight Princess drool*.

Amusingly enough, my biggest *project* at the moment involves my recording all the comedy galas that channel 10 puts on in lieu of Rove. Also I'm tracking down the 2005 'A Very Specky Christmas', recording the best of this week, and adding the 2006 ep which should air mid-december.